in 2007 I was diagnosed with Bipolar. The meds they gave me were wrong for me and I gave up on them for nearly a decade. In 2017 I went back and tried again.
There are no words for the difference and transformation I went through. Before I was a half a person where now I am almost whole. Sometimes I like to think of the bipolar like a black sluge stuck inside my head and the medicine.
It is not perfect but its 70 percent better. It is always going to be there like a dark passenger, the meds just gave me the tools to fight.
I currently take Zoloft, lithium and hydroxozyn with very little side effects. Because I am ridiculously lucky I found the right combination on the third try.
“I NEVER HAVE TO FEEL WORTHLESS AGAIN”
The meds turn down the volume on all the bad emotions. And one of the worst emotions I have ever felt was worthless. I remember think at the chart of me taking meds, don’t get fooled it will come back. Now it has been two and a half years and I have never felt that pit of darkness since.
I don’t have a desire to drink anymore. I have the occasional drink on my birthday and New Years eve. But I just don’t care to get f**Ked up anymore. I drank more than I care to admit in my younger days. And during that time the thought of quitting drinking was like death to me. I was trying to make myself a whole person with alcohol.
I smile more and cry less. My life doesn’t feel like a mess. lol I did not mean for that to rhyme.
I have been driving with Uber eats for a year and a half but only as a side gig. Last month I quit both my jobs in fast-food and switched to full time ubering.
It’s been a little rocky here and there. Sometimes I get caught in traffic jams in Dallas that look like a scene from a movie. But the more I do it the better I get at navigating.
You get to be your own boss and get paid right away. You can take breaks whenever you want and the tips are incredible.I get to see lakes, forests and some really cool scenery.
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If you are just starting out or don’t have much driving experience then I suggest taking it easy. Try one or two a day and work your way up. It can be stressful but the reward is worth it.
A TV show based in a German town. The town has a wormhole that can make you travel in time. 33 years into the future or 33 years into the past.
There is just so much going on that I know the second time I watch it will be better than the first.
If you are worried about subtitles then fret not. They use voice overs who really brought some passion to it. Sometimes the words match up so perfectly that you forget it’s a voice over. I have viewed so many movies with horrible voice overs, like fingers on a chalk board. But with Dark you will forget they are speaking German in like two minutes.
It’s really cool getting a look inside German culture. It’s not that different from American culture.
If you are a nerd I highly suggest checking it out. Its no Game of Thrones but it is definitely a good watch.
Check out my other TV show Reviews:
TV show Review – Parks and Recreation
TV show Review- Stranger Things